Today is a really good day.

I’m sitting in my living room, phone in hand, replying to messages from friends which is something I haven’t done much of in months. For a while, I’ve been in my feelings, tucked away indoors, barely even stepping outside to feel the grass. But suddenly, it’s like a switch flipped. Everything feels lighter. Everything feels good. And for the first time in a while, I believe everything is going to be okay.

I keep reminding myself: I don’t need to control the future. My real fear isn’t the future itself, it’s actually making the wrong choices in the present that might mess it up. Every day I ask myself, are my actions today helping future Debs, or hurting her? That question has been heavy. But today, the weight feels different—like maybe I’m capable of choosing well.

Paying Attention to Myself

Part of why today feels good is because I’m becoming more intentional. Lately, I’ve been so conscious of the words I speak. I pause before I say something, making sure it’s clear, that it makes sense. It’s helping me understand myself better—and also helping others understand me.

I’ve noticed that in the past, I’d tell stories in a way that made sense in my head, but not necessarily to the person listening (since, of course, they can’t read my thoughts). Now I’m slowing down, articulating more clearly, and paying attention, not just to what I say, but to what bothers me, what makes me uncomfortable, and what sparks growth.

And honestly? I’m proud of the girl I’m becoming.

Have you ever had one of those days where everything just… shifted?

Maybe today feels good because I finally paid attention to myself. Maybe the secret isn’t figuring everything out, maybe it’s just noticing when I feel okay, and letting that be enough. Is this what growth looks like?

It’s strange how one good day can make the future feel a little less… scary.